The Painful Truth

Christmas is now finally over even for me. It was with grief in my heart that I disarmed my christmas tree, dead since long time ago but nevertheless still used as decoration until tonight. Of course I should have got rid of it as soon as I noticed that it was not taking up water anymore, but I was thinking "what's the harm as long as the spruce needles are still intact.?" I was thinking of keeping the tree trunk after cutting off every single branch, but It just did not look very nice obviously. Also, it painfully reminded me of a time when it was the most beautiful christmas tree I had ever seen. It was also my first own christmas tree which causes me a great deal of sadness as we have to go separate ways. I may have another tree next christmas but the first christmas tree is always special. Besides, it had been here for so long that I can not really say that I remember what it was like before I bought it. When I had put it into a plastic bag it left an empty space I am sure that I had never seen that before.

Although I know it in my heart, I can not believe that it is over.